Monday, November 26, 2012

Really Rough Day

Well, some days are just rough, pure and simple.  Last March I made an unhappy discovery, and after eight months, Mark and I have been unable to recover our relationship.  Today culminated in yet another disclosure, and I finally have to move on with my own recovery from depression to a happier life without this continued drama.  So now its just the four of us: me, Tanji, Uschi, and Vladi.  I really wish Mark luck with his family.  I guess I should have been ready for this day, but it is scary and so, so, sad.  Please send some happy thoughts our way, its been a really rough day.


Karen said...


I have followed your blog for many years..I am so sorry to hear of your breakup!!

Sending you many healing thoughts..may your boys lift your spirts and help you soar to a happier life!


Anonymous said...

Hopefully as one door closes, another will open and it will be to happier places. I hope the boys take good care of you.

Anonymous said...

I have followed your family's "Adventures" since the beginning. Things have seemed a bit different over the recent months and I didn't catch the significance of 2nd house for what it appears to be.

WOW! I'm in shock!

I'm very sorry for your breakup!!!!

That is terrible and painful beyond words, I know.

A word of personal wisdom I have lived. Do not close all doors tightly shut and turn your backs. If you can in any small way leave a light on, no matter how dim it seems today, it can become a very powerful beacon.

I'm sending you ALL (5) happy energy!!!

Hug your Bengal boys tightly!!

They are such a source of happiness right in your lap. You are fortunate to have them in your life.

Anonymous said...

You are an amazing person and have followed you for several years! Wishing you much happiness with your boys! I know they will take care of you and bring you much happiness....your friends are there for you!

Anonymous said...

Yu rock girl!!! I looove yur blg & yur art. Yu (guys) are always so up, this is the only post I remember seeing that wasn't 100% positv, yu stll got some in there though, nice. Drama Sucks!!! Several door analogys posted already, but i like the beecon one. It seems like yu 2 have been for a bunch of years, at least prior to yur fluffs joining yu (6+yrs?). Thngs happn to us all over the yrs, relatinships that are there at the end of it all often go off cliffs into a darkness & that beecon helps the lost ones find there way home. The dark is scary for all keep it shining but don't let the scuzzies track it, reflect it off one of thse blingy stars & disco!! Yu 2 seem(ed) in2 each other, that is special, don't forget that, but be safe! Enough of that sappie stuff!!! Positive ENERGYYYYYY!!! Yu ROCK Girrrrl!!! Hug 3 furry 4-legged fluffy boys, do some that colorful art, and smile!!!

Bonnie said...

I'm sorry about what you're going through now. I'm glad that you have the boys to occupy and comfort you, and I join everyone in wishing you peace and healing. Please continue blogging, as you have an extended family around the world who have bonded with you through your blog and care about you.

silvia said...

dear lesley, dear mark

maybe words are not in the right place, now.
maybe just silence and the listening i, we can gift you with.
so if you want to, if you need to speak, pls know there is somebody here listening. acknowledging you - and the boyz.

a heartful embracing, peaceful thoughts.
i/we LOVE you ALL !!!

Furious Weasel Cat said...

So sorry to hear about this! Everything happens for a reason and although it may not feel like it now, but this could be the start of a new adventure for you. I am sure the boys will keep your spirits up and take your mind off things. If theres one thing in the world that can make you feel better, its your furkids. x

Cdn Cat said...

My heart goes out to you Lesley. You have 3 little guys that love you unconditionally, and will be there for you no matter what.
I have been reading your blog for years now and picked up on some vibes that something was amiss awhile ago, but couldn't put my finger on it.
A big hug to you and the boys to help you get through this rough patch... I'll be sending you lots of positive healing vibes!

Mom to Sam and Lila said...

Oh, Lesley...I'm so very sorry about what you're experiencing. Since I've also been a part of your blog community from the beginning I do hope that you'll continue to maintain your presence here. And as someone who shares your daily struggle, as you know, I'm glad that you have the boys to give you (mostly ;-}) unconditional love and to keep you company.

I realize that it can be difficult, but if you're not already doing this I encourage you to seek out a group of people with whom you can connect via something that gives you pleasure, perhaps a group of artists? My volunteer work has been a huge help for me because of the positive feedback and regular connection I get from a group of people that I both like and share a passion.

I know that Uschi is particularly attached to Mark so I also hope that his adjustment to the change in your life won't be too traumatic for him.

If you have occasion to make the drive northward, along with the time and the inclination, I would love to visit with you again over a meal or a beverage. **My e-mail address is still tkwatson at teleport dot com. <- Delete before approving this post, if possible.**

I'll be sending many positive and healing thoughts your way. Hugs to you and your boys.


Sue Larbalestier said...

I was in your position a few years ago. It is difficult making a new begining but you never know what life has in store for you. For now take the advice that has been given. Hugs your cats and give yourself time to heal. I came out of the dispair and depression and found the sunshine again. I'm sure you will too.